Astonishing Love……



There are a lot of sad things in the world today. But the saddest thing I can think of, at this moment, is when a person is “astonished” by another persons generosity or caring gesture. What does it say about the world when another person being generous or kind creates a feeling of astonishment in us?

I really have nothing left to say at the moment….I just want to think about this.

Be the change you want to see………

The path less traveled (one can hope) !


“After great pain, a formal feeling comes—…”

I agree….

The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Tombs –
The stiff Heart questions ‘was it He, that bore,’
And ‘Yesterday, or Centuries before’?
The Feet, mechanical, go round –
A Wooden way
Of Ground, or Air, or Ought –
Regardless grown,
A Quartz contentment, like a stone –
This is the Hour of Lead –
Remembered, if outlived,
As Freezing persons, recollect the Snow –
First – Chill – then Stupor – then the letting go –

Ah to let go.  It is all mechanical. She had it so right. We move from moment to moment as if in a dream. It becomes so surreal…..

But we go on! We continue. Because we must! Yes, we do have a choice, and the choice is clear, at least to me, it is to go on…continue as best I can.  In a moment I feel like it is over; life as I know it! That this devastating thing, this horrendous moment in my life has caused my heart to cease beating;  at least beating for you. But it will continue to beat and it will get stronger as time passes….because I always have a choice.  That choice to lie down and succumb to the great sorrow, the pain of it all, or to get up and continue.
God gives us trials and tribulations to learn and grow from, I can bear that in mind as I start back on my journey. I can continue down this detour and get back out on the main road that leads to my destiny.
And so it is….that is where you will find me these days! Walking down that road, on my current detour, hitting a few bumps, and soon….soon, I will be back out on the main road.
And I will keep on walking….to reach my destiny.

It’s My Party and I’ll Cry If I want To……..


Let me preface this by saying this is coming from a personal place, not professional. I get wonderful feedback from the blogosphere and others, I am speaking from a personal standpoint regarding this!

On to the party!

Thats right, it’s time for a pity party! Woohoo!!  “It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry if I want to! You would cry too if it happened to you!”

Well, I do not know if you would cry too but I like to think you would!  That does not sound right! But still……I mean, I am hurt! Genuinely hurt.  I will make this short and sweet and then I will move on never to speak of it again!

I write from my soul, as I said in my post earlier today! My writing is very important to me! I am an encourager by nature, and as such I truly appreciate what an encouraging word means to a person.

I am going to tell you something that I am not proud of…….the fact that nobody….n.o.b.o.d.y. encourages me in my writing! I have nobody that ever tells me they read my blog ( without me first having to ask) or tells me that they feel encouraged or touched by my writing. They never tell me I am good at it. Don’t get me wrong, if I have asked I get told some of these types of things.  But even my husband, who reads my blog, never tells me he enjoyed it, or didn’t, or that it may have been good or not. My family, my friends….nope, none of them. People who know that I want a meaningful career at this…nope! The only people who, by “liking” my posts seem to think maybe I have something to say, are you readers and fellow bloggers. And for that I do thank you!

So now I will step down off of my weeping box ( kind of like a soap box but for pity parties) and go back to doing what I love to do and do it for me. Which is what I was doing before. It just bothered me when I realized I have never received so much as a pat on the back for trying to realize my dreams!   But you know what is great about this?!  It doesn’t bother me all that much! ( once upon a time it would have really bothered me!)

But today I know It’s not about anyone but me and God.

Peace and Love~ Christine

P.S.- there is one person who told me recently that she reads my blog and likes it. If she is reading this, “thank you Jacky” 🙂