Still Working on 5 and 11!

spiritualquotes2How many of us can say we have gained full awakening? Congratulations if that describes you!! That is awesome!   Me? No!  Although I think I have done well and have grown tremendously in the last 8 years; I still have growth to do and that is as it should be! I want to continue to grow, once I reach full awakening I know there will be times when I slip and that is what I will work on next! Always growing, always learning! After all none of us are perfect, we are only human! 😉

Back to the list, it is a good list, I have mastered almost all of these “symptoms.”  The symptoms I am still working on are #5 and #11. Rather than number each so called symptom I will just say that I have lost interest in the other more conflicting “symptoms” and am happier in my life because of it.  And the symptoms involving spontaneous smiling or appreciation have become deeply engrained in who I am!  I am happy to say that! To reach 5 and 11 will take more time, but I am happily working on it!  Of course fear and self-judging is last to be mastered; it is easier for me, and most others, to be kind and patient with people besides ourselves.

It has taken some time and some work to get here, but I enjoyed the ride and I look forward to continuing growth towards a fuller awakening!  Don’t get me wrong, I understand that not all people, probably not most, want to reach this type of awakening (and some may feel this is an impossible goal) and that is OK. We are all on different paths in this life, and that is good and right. I understand that most of us who walk this path of awakening do so with the knowledge that to be this way 100% of the time is not realistic!  But we strive to reach the goal and that is what matters. If I can be this person who lives a life filled with these attributes, even 80% of the time, then I consider the goal met!  But that is my goal……

Of course this is only my take on things and it works well for me, I guess it may work well for others too.


God knows…..

20131208-083643.jpgGod really is in control! Sometimes I have to remind myself of that fact. When things do not go the way my human mind said it should…I start thinking my life is not working out; that is when I need to remember God is in control. Everything works out the way He intends it to. Our paths may not be straight, definitely will not be, but as we go up and down and swerving all over the place it is good to remember….He is in control. Hand it over to Him and let go.

My journey to where I am today has been anything but a straight shot! I have had so many “aha” moments; and each time I think I have “arrived” to the promised land. But not yet….maybe never. And that may be a really good thing….because that ensures my continued growth and evolution on the path to know Him as intimately as humanly possible.

In the past I’ve been bothered by my journey, thinking I’m  scattered and not focused. Each time something new happens and my journey takes a turn ( never away from the spirit but just different) I think….” here I go again! Miss scattered brain strikes!” I realize that most of these thoughts have been “put” into my head by other people….. these are not thoughts that sprang from my soul. And that truth helps me to get to where He is leading me. If I didn’t have that truth I am afraid I would have given up a long time ago!

So armed with that truth I am now able to embrace with joy and excitement every change that comes my way. With the knowledge that it is He that is in control and guiding me on this journey!

With recent events I was faced with that feeling of being “scattered” and then remembered my truth! I am happy to report I saw the truth much quicker this time; which makes me feel I am finally “getting it!”  That in itself is a great gift for today!  So it is with this in mind that I have embraced the idea of going ahead and getting those pesky letters after my name.

I have never felt the need for higher education…..but apparently He does.

**Thankfully I have been in school for 3 years already and can transfer some of my work! Whewee!!