Spiritual Awakening

This is a blog post from 2012. I write about this life event in my upcoming book – The Gratitude Project. I was reading it and decided to share! 

Have you had your spiritual awakening?

Mine began in 2007 with a huge “aha” moment in August! But that was just the beginning. I think we all have huge moments which we can look back upon that have helped to define who we are or have become. That moment in August of 2007 was mine. I will never forget it.  To make a long story short…I was in a miserable place over 1000 miles away from my family ( except for my husband and oldest son) my life consisted of going to work and coming home. That was it! I had no happiness, I had no purpose. I was not even aware of the fact that there was a problem until God moved me 1000 miles away from my family! I guess that is the literal meaning of not being able to see the trees for the forest? Or is it forest for the trees? You get my point! ( this is one thing that apparently will never change about me, my unintentional but ever-present mixing and misquoting of metaphors!)  Anyway, it took being very far away from my family and totally miserable to have my aha moment, which led to my spiritual awakening! It was a song that I heard over and over again playing in my car whenever I would drive to work, but I wasn’t really hearing it….after about a week of this happening, all of a sudden I heard the words to the song….It was like the radio just turned up and I heard the words

” Thought that I was all alone
Broken and afraid
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me ”

“And I didn’t even know
That I had lost my way
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me”

and by the time they got to

“Even though the journey’s long
And I know the road is hard
Well, the One who’s gone before me
He will help me carry on
After all that I’ve been through
Now I realize the truth
That I must go through the valley
To stand upon the mountain of God”

I was broken and saved all in the same moment!

I heard God speaking to me and He was telling me to go back home to Indiana!  He told me, in no uncertain terms, that not only did I not belong there in Florida, but that there was a lot of work to be done at home. So I went to our condo and told my husband that God said “it is time to go home to Indiana.” And we did. I quit my job 2 weeks later and 2 months after that we were back home and the real journey began!

And has yet to stop or even slow down……..

I love my life!~ C.F.Martin

Change the Way You See Your World…..

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For me the world has changed subtly for the last 8 years and maybe not so subtly for the last 3 of those years! When I began my journey down this road I had no idea where it would lead me, what I did know was I could not stay on my current path. So I began a new journey and oh how the world has changed.

Practicing Gratitude has created an entirely different world for me and I think for those around me. If you asked those who know me best, I believe you would find they would tell you I have had a shift in the very essence of who I am. I know that is sort of deep and maybe the truth is you can’t change your essence because that would be your soul, so let me clarify that what I am trying to say is that while maybe my essence has remained the same, technically, it has come to the forefront of my Being! I am fully (maybe not fully) the person I’m intended to be; the one God intended. I was not this person when I began my journey! Practicing Gratitude has opened up a whole new world and a whole new ME.

Yes, my essence has become more who it’s supposed to be. And dare I say I am not finished? It is true, I do not think I’ll be finished until I draw my last breath. I will forever continue to grow, change, and become closer to that Being God intended!

And I am loving the journey!

Embrace That Which is YOU!

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Irritated? Grouchy? Short tempered? It happens to the best of us!

I think…rather than trying to “hide” that side of us; that part of us that makes us oh so human….instead of trying so hard to bury those moments when we feel less than “prefect” or spiritual, we need to accept and embrace all that is US.  Unconditional love is not something that we should extend only to others….we need to give that love, that acceptance for an imperfect life, to our own self.

Why do we work so hard to love our neighbors; but not love ourselves the same way? Your/my bitchy moment…irritated second…that is part of who we are! We are after all human beings attempted to live a spiritual life!  As such we will have moments when we do not live up to our own expectations! Should we throw in the towel, or accept who we are, and understand that it was just a moment when we struggled a little?

I talk all the time about accepting others and loving them unconditionally…well we need to extend that love to ourselves and move past it.  The way to work through these things, and get to a higher place, is to accept them and move on.  When we hide it (or stuff it down) all we do is cause pain for ourselves! Let it go!  It is just part of the journey!

I love you! And I love me!