I Have to be ME!

imperfectImperfect me! Loving and forgiving…. yet still me. Me being the person that is capable of love, gratitude, forgiveness AND at times susceptible to the world! Meaning I have an opinion and sometimes my opinion may not align with others. I have noticed lately that I have tried to censor myself to “fall in line” with the person I portray myself as through my writing.  I guess this is a normal thing to do, I am sure we all do this at times- lose ourselves in this world. For me I am holding myself to a level that pretty much guarantees I will fail from time to time.  I have realized I need to stop this. I need to embrace all of me, even the parts of me that have opinions on things that are not necessarily of a positive nature! While continuing to strive for a better moment, a better day, a better life!

I am always talking about being authentic and embracing who we are. Well I need to take my advice about this. I need to be OK with saying to others that at times, even though I am grateful and I do advocate a positive attitude, I still can have an opinion on the things of this world that are not necessarily surrounded by a positive vibe. We can’t exactly want to change things, say of a political nature, without talking about the politics. I have to be OK with that. I need to not be afraid of offending others; as long as I am offering my opinion in an open-minded and non judgmental way. I realize we all have opinions and we should be able to share those opinions to grow.

So while I advocate living a grateful life and a positive one, I do not live in a utopian world where bad things never happen. I realize the reality of life – to make an omelet some eggs will be broken!  It is what it is.

What I need is more confidence in the knowledge that I can live a gratitude-filled life without having to act as if I live in a Utopia; like there is no work that needs to be done.  There is work to be done and I am grateful for all the experiences I have as I do my work.

I can advocate love, gratitude, forgiveness and still speak up when I feel someone is being wronged; even if the situation surrounding that wronging is one of a negative nature. Such as our current political climate! It is hard to weigh in on a subject when the subject is just so negative in nature!

Of course this all comes with the caveat that I am not coming from a place of fear, anger, or hatred, and that is where the real work is! I need to come from a place of love. And in order to do this I must respond and not react. That is something I work on everyday.  I believe to be true to who I am, to live a truly authentic life, I need to master this way of living!

But this is me, not you. We all must walk our own path. But please do not mistake an opinion on a negative situation as a loss of my humanity.  ❤

Simple Thinking……

toleranceI believe It truly is that simple. I know there are people who feel it is their “station” in life that makes them better than others and more deserving of things. That by birth (or belief) they’re entitled to certain rights and privileges that others are not. That their way is the right way, etc…… I just don’t agree. I guess I am lucky to have been born American and that is why I stay here, I want the freedom to believe this even if you don’t.

I believe whatever I’m entitled to in life, I can’t judge another to be less entitled, less deserving of the same things.  I guess that is why I love this quote.   The word tolerance is a good word yet I feel it being turned around. Every day I feel the word is becoming something akin to racist or bigot. Maybe it is just me…maybe I am overly sensitive, but I feel I hear this word being used by some people to describe a person who is less than desirable, someone who is slipping away from their faith and from God. Again it may be me or may be a religion thing….I don’t know.

What I do know is I love diversity. I love a good (friendly) debate. I love exploring different faiths and the people who are a part of them: and those who have no faith; at least in a deity. I love different people..cultures, thoughts, beliefs.

I want people to tolerate my right to love these things and I will do the same in return. And if you can forgive me my overly passionate writing, then all the better!!  🙂

I spoke to a good friend this morning, he and I have different beliefs, yet we have great conversations and I consider him a good friend and a wise man. I love that we can speak on these subjects and we have tolerance and beyond that…we have a friendship forged out of a common interest and love for humanity. I encourage him and he encourages me.  And we both have a hope for humanity and this hope, whether it is faith-based or man-based, is a hope none the less and it encourages me!

I can ask for no more than to be encouraged in life. I want to wake up each morning knowing there is hope! And I am blessed to see it daily.  I want to believe where there is love there is hope, I will continue to write each day about this love and this hope.

I feel things in life, things that I can’t see, the thing I feel most is love!!  And that gives way to hope.

Naive? Maybe so…..I am OK with that!!  The pure joy I feel when I wake up is because of this feeling, this knowing, God has breathed into my soul this….thing. And I honor it and Him. I always will.  So naïve it is!!