Christmas Memories

I am such a selfish person! I always had a dream of how life would be once my children grew up and had kids. It was just the four of us when they were growing up; so I (probably way more than they) had a deep attachment to them. See the selfishness comes in because I want my kids with me for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day . I want us all together when we wake up on Christmas Day. 

Well that’s not realistic. I get that. 

So I settled for early Christmas Day and then I get them all day. Well that doesn’t work either.  

So I settled for noon thru the day so we could open presents and eat without rush. Well that didn’t work. 

So now I take what I can get. And I AM grateful for whatever that is!! It is usually after 1 or 2 until early evening. And that is good. 

But the selfish part of me mourned the loss. The loss of what was and what could have been. 

The loss of my dreams. 

I have my memories AND those are some precious Christmas memories. I was blessed to have way more time than I could have hoped for because my daughter and her family lived with us for many Christmas’ !! 

So now I look at it as if God gave me more than most and regardless of whether I ever have it like that or like my dream again…. I have memories. 

And now it’s time for me to stop fighting it and move into the new phase of my life. Our life. Being away these last two weeks (at Christmas) helped me to understand this. It’s time for me to embrace the changes. 

That is what my writing career and my location move are all about. Embrace the changes. Be open to all God has in store for me/us. And I AM. It’s in His hands and always has been. It’s just about time that I truly let go and allow the blessings to flow- even if those blessings do not resemble my dream 

They are still blessings. Heaped upon me in abundance that I will not turn my back on ❤️

Tis The Season


Finally! Finally it is starting to feel a little like Christmas! I love the Christmas season and yes I am one of those people who will start decorating right after thanksgiving, if I can! Sometimes vacations have gotten in the way causing me to be a little late to the party, but this year a beast of a different kind stopped the show!

I came down with pneumonia! Well I have never had this particular illness and had no idea that I would be so flipping exhausted! WOW! And to top it off the 4 days before my becoming ill I was mostly at the hospital because my 2-year-old granddaughter AND my 4-year-old grandson had pneumonia and RSV! She was the one hospitalized. They are both doing better now. But I was driving back and forth daily to help out my daughter who was at the hospital and had a bad sinus infection! Whew! That is a lot! As soon as the baby was released I was diagnosed with a large mass on my right lung. I am now being treated for pneumonia and we are hoping that is what the mass is! Doc is just not sure…we will see! I mean we are sure I have pneumonia, just can’t tell from the x-ray if the mass is the pneumonia or something else. So we will do follow-up x-rays.  As you can see this has been an eventful season so far but for all the wrong reasons!

OK….enough about the downer stuff! Here is what I am feeling today!

GRATEFUL! LOVING! COMPASSION! I am seeing/feeling so much love this holiday season! Maybe I am more receptive to it this season than in others, I am sure that is true, but it is awesome to see so many people reaching out to others!


Do you know that I have been through the Starbucks drive thru 2 times in the last month when the person in front of me bought my drink for me?! I love it! They have given me the opportunity to buy the people behind me drinks! Pay it forward and RAK’s all at once!

Today my oldest granddaughter, Christa, is coming over to help me with my 3rd youngest granddaughter Bella. I had previously promised Bella she could spend the night, I could not disappoint her! 4 yr olds do not understand grandma is sick! So they are coming over and we are going to have a quiet afternoon and evening decorating the Christmas tree! I am so blessed! And I have no problem asking for help….especially when that means I get to see 2 of my granddaughters!

My wish for you this December weekend is to feel as blessed as you are!



Keep Her In Your Heart………….

“For since death came through a man, the resurrection of the dead comes also through a man. For as in Adam all die, so in Christ all will be made alive.” I Corinthians 15:21-22, NIV

An amazing lady passed away on May 14th,2012

She was loved by many and will be missed.

She was Grandma to more than her own grandchildren.

Children who are now adults…and their children….. knew her as Grandma.

Could there be any greater legacy?  Maybe…but this one is hers, and her family’s.

God Bless them all.