Christmas Memories

I am such a selfish person! I always had a dream of how life would be once my children grew up and had kids. It was just the four of us when they were growing up; so I (probably way more than they) had a deep attachment to them. See the selfishness comes in because I want my kids with me for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day . I want us all together when we wake up on Christmas Day. 

Well that’s not realistic. I get that. 

So I settled for early Christmas Day and then I get them all day. Well that doesn’t work either.  

So I settled for noon thru the day so we could open presents and eat without rush. Well that didn’t work. 

So now I take what I can get. And I AM grateful for whatever that is!! It is usually after 1 or 2 until early evening. And that is good. 

But the selfish part of me mourned the loss. The loss of what was and what could have been. 

The loss of my dreams. 

I have my memories AND those are some precious Christmas memories. I was blessed to have way more time than I could have hoped for because my daughter and her family lived with us for many Christmas’ !! 

So now I look at it as if God gave me more than most and regardless of whether I ever have it like that or like my dream again…. I have memories. 

And now it’s time for me to stop fighting it and move into the new phase of my life. Our life. Being away these last two weeks (at Christmas) helped me to understand this. It’s time for me to embrace the changes. 

That is what my writing career and my location move are all about. Embrace the changes. Be open to all God has in store for me/us. And I AM. It’s in His hands and always has been. It’s just about time that I truly let go and allow the blessings to flow- even if those blessings do not resemble my dream 

They are still blessings. Heaped upon me in abundance that I will not turn my back on ❤️

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Leave A Legacy of Gratitude!

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I want to leave a legacy to my family! I have thought about this for a long time now, and I want to leave a legacy of gratitude to my family. I want them, when they think back on me, to think of gratitude, kindness, and love. But I want it to go further than that, I want it to fundamentally change the core of my family! I want generations to come to be affected by my choices today and we know as a rule that is how this works. My family will indeed be affected by what I do today.

We know that children raised in families of negativity, in general, have a higher chance of being the same way- no this is not a steadfast rule!!  But you certainly have a greater chance of having a future life filled with negativity if you’re raised surrounded by negativity, right? OK.

So I want to live my life in such a way that it trickles down and affects my children, my grandchildren and generations beyond them.

Be the change you want to see in the world!  It works. Do it!

It is your choice! Or is it?

 

When you hear people say “you are responsible for your past, present, and future.” Does that sit well with you? The whole “it is your choice” concept?

I have found that sometimes it rubs people the wrong way, because it is hard for them to face the truths, the truth about accepting responsibility for their own life.

Having said that, there are those who carry scars from childhood traumas, those people were not making choices! It was not this young persons choice to be abused, neglected,etc… the treatment they received was not a choice they made; and not one they need to accept responsibility for! Children are not of an age to make these choices, therefore they are victims and as such can’t take responsibility for what others have inflicted upon them.

What they can do is get healthy! Your future IS up to you and that IS your choice! When we become adults we are given the gift of choice. And how we choose to live the rest of our life, how we choose to react, this IS up to us! Do not let the one who hurt you WIN! It is now your choice! Be empowered! Start living your life! You can do it!