Christmas Memories

I am such a selfish person! I always had a dream of how life would be once my children grew up and had kids. It was just the four of us when they were growing up; so I (probably way more than they) had a deep attachment to them. See the selfishness comes in because I want my kids with me for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day . I want us all together when we wake up on Christmas Day. 

Well that’s not realistic. I get that. 

So I settled for early Christmas Day and then I get them all day. Well that doesn’t work either.  

So I settled for noon thru the day so we could open presents and eat without rush. Well that didn’t work. 

So now I take what I can get. And I AM grateful for whatever that is!! It is usually after 1 or 2 until early evening. And that is good. 

But the selfish part of me mourned the loss. The loss of what was and what could have been. 

The loss of my dreams. 

I have my memories AND those are some precious Christmas memories. I was blessed to have way more time than I could have hoped for because my daughter and her family lived with us for many Christmas’ !! 

So now I look at it as if God gave me more than most and regardless of whether I ever have it like that or like my dream again…. I have memories. 

And now it’s time for me to stop fighting it and move into the new phase of my life. Our life. Being away these last two weeks (at Christmas) helped me to understand this. It’s time for me to embrace the changes. 

That is what my writing career and my location move are all about. Embrace the changes. Be open to all God has in store for me/us. And I AM. It’s in His hands and always has been. It’s just about time that I truly let go and allow the blessings to flow- even if those blessings do not resemble my dream 

They are still blessings. Heaped upon me in abundance that I will not turn my back on ❤️

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Goodnight Wayne……….

waynedyermusic  My heart is breaking tonight at the news that Wayne Dyer has passed from this life. Dr. Wayne has been my greatest teacher! Wayne Dyer was with me when I was in my darkest moments, he helped me to reconnect with God in a way that I never knew was possible.

The world has been blessed with the gift of Dr. Dyer, he will be missed. First I want to say to his family and loved ones; my prayers and thoughts are with you.

He leaves behind many books filled with his inspiring words.  This reminds me, in a very real way, just how important it is to get my words put down on paper, out there for others to read and hopefully to inspire and possibly help.

Dr. Wayne did not die with his music still in him, although I am saddened that there seemed to be so much more to do. Although God obviously felt Wayne was needed in heaven far more than he was needed here. He has done so much here I can understand why he could be, obviously was, ready to go home. I am sure he will rest a while and then get on with the business of teaching and inspiring folks in the heavens.  And I am sure he will tell them all about the Scurvy elephant and then continue to be that scurvy elephant!

Wayne said to find the blessings in every situation; and that is exactly what I do! The blessing today, for me, is that I am being reminded how special and blessed this life I have is. The blessing is in having had the pleasure, the honor, to have been alive at the same time as this man.

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It IS Coming Along! I Wanted To Share With YOU! xx

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Gratitude-It’s A Lifestyle

Here is the first Unedited paragraph….. I have 3 of my proposed 14 chapters finished!

Can I tell you that I have started this book at least 4 times? It never seemed right, it was always missing something. So I began again, and I begin yet again. But this time I feel it is different, I feel a certain humbleness that may have been missing in my past attempts; I think I can feel the hand of God on me now as I write these words…..something is different. And I say that with a humbleness and in awe of Him and quite frankly…you. I’m humbled by the sheer mass that I know you are, you are not one, you are many, and that is awe inspiring. The amount of people I see, every day, which are making a shift today towards living a more spiritual, or at least a kinder, life is staggering! It is awe inspiring; and it fills me with hope!

I have made a renewed commitment, to myself and my God, to not be a house divided any longer. I am devoted to getting on paper that which I have spent years studying! I have waited a long time to get to this point; so here I AM!  And I am excited!!

It may take me a while to finish, because I do have to sell a house here or there……but finish it I will! ❤

Thank you for reading…..