Dreams Do Come True!

Hello!

It has been way too long! How are you? I hope you have been good, better than good, great! And of course grateful!

Doug and I have much to be grateful for this year. We have reached our goal (dream) of a successful relocation from Indiana to North Eastern Florida; St Augustine to be precise!  The move happened last Oct and we are just about getting settled! Moving at anytime in your life is a big venture, but let me tell you doing it over  50 is something else! lol

Now I just wait for Doug to retire! That should happen in the next 3 years. In the meantime I keep busy with my travel business and of course, writing.  On that front though……I have slacked.  I want to change that. One reason I desperately wanted to move here was to be inspired to connect more to earth and God. Something within said I needed to do this, so we made it happen. Now I need to get to the writing aspect of it. I have definitely fully embraced the relaxation of my new community! I love it. I have continued to develop a love for photography, I have included some of my recent photos.  In case you are at all curious to see more, you can view them on my Instagram account found at @Desperatelyseekingchristine  there is a link here on this page also.  I would love to follow you back!

So while we are busy living our lives, of course, life continues.  We are blessed to have welcomed a new granddaughter last Dec and are doubly blessed by welcoming another new granddaughter this coming Oct!  If you are keeping score the grandkid count now sits at – 4 boys and 7 girls!  huh, imagine that…girls are winning! Ha!

The book! As you know The Gratitude Project was released last May. It went to Best Seller several times….. I am very grateful for the experience of writing and releasing my book. I will give this as an example of how I feel about it- I received a review from someone on Goodreads, in her review she said the book just wasn’t for her. She said she felt it had too much God in it and that I drew too much from personal experience when writing my book….so too anecdotal.  That may be a negative review to some; but to me….she made my day! That was an excellent review!! Her review says to me that I did a good job and met my goal! No such thing as too much God…. I was actually worried I didn’t give Him enough space! And the book was about my personal experiences, how else am I to have an informed opinion? Too many people think you should  study,study,study and then, and only then, offer opinion! I think you need to live life and share experiences! That is real. I like real!

I will end this now, but I want to say I hope 2018 is finding you and your loved ones in good health and good will! If you are in need of healing and peaceful thoughts please take a moment now to connect to my energy….. I give it freely with love. Sending healing, peaceful, relaxing, thoughts and prayers to you and yours!!

 

 

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Hello Spring!

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Happy Spring to you!  Well, it has been some time now since I have been here on my blog. No reason other than we moved to Florida in the last few months and it has taken a lot of my time away from other things.  Including writing!

So, yes we moved from Indiana to Northeastern Florida in Oct 2017. This has been a goal of mine for quite some time now. I am excited that it became a reality and so far we love living here!

Why the move? Honestly the biggest reason was that it was time for me to grow up and let go of my adult children!  It didnt seem to be something I could accomplish living with in a few miles of them all, so we moved 1000 miles away. It was not just for me, it was for them too.  I am trying to do us all a service!  Due to the nature of our lives as they were growing up, I think we are all a little bit co-dependent. I want more for my children than a dysfunctional relationship with their mom!  LOL   Okay, I am sure it is not all that bad, but really the problem lies within me and my psyche….. if you have been around for awhile then you know I had my life all planned out in a certain manner and it all blew up in my face! Well, I was having a hard time letting go, I really wanted that family compound! All the kids and grandkids under one roof, or if not one roof then within walking distance of each other. Then, like a slap in the face, other people were getting my dreams……… I’m not even sure they had spent their lives pining for it as I had. LOL

That is how life works! It does what it wants, not what you want. Quite often it gives you something you never knew you wanted. So I try (now) to roll with it. I know God has plans for me so I just keep moving forward. I feel like in Indiana I had stopped moving forward, I was stuck in one place waiting…waiting….waiting for that life I had spent my entire momhood praying and planning for!  It had passed me by and I was done mourning it and wishing it back. I wanted to appreciate what I did have, past and present, and I wanted to mold myself a new life. So I did.

And here I am in NE Florida! Living a life that is taking some getting used to! Not that it is a bad thing, it is not! It is just different. An entirely different life than I ever imagined for myself!! Wow!!! How different!! And of course, my kids are not with me. I never ever in a million years thought I would say that! But God will make you so uncomfortable that you will have no choice but to make changes you never thought possible!  And so here I am.

I hope to be here, on this blog, a lot more than I have been. You know my book was published last May. I have not yet begun a new one, although I have ideas. But I have been busy. I am also a travel agent that specializes in cruising and Disney….to that end I have  been making some YouTube videos about our adventures. Recently we cruised with Celebrity on the Equinox. I do not know if you have an interest in this type of thing, but if you do please feel free to check out my channel. The name of it is Desperately Seeking Christine.  Apropos…no?  lol   If you choose to visit and subscribe you will be welcome! And hopefully enjoy!

In the meantime I do hope to see you around more often!  Hope you are well. ~ I love you!

Forgive….. but forget?

There are things we never forget in life. Some good. Some bad. I work on forgetting the bad. Thing is, I’ve forgiven anyone that may be responsible for the bad , yes even me. But there are some things I can’t seem to forget. Forgive yes, forget….. not yet.

Abuse is something that is hard to forget. I feel like I have accomplished a lot by forgiving. And I do forgive. 100%. Why can’t I forget? It may be the trauma of it. I still, at the oddest moments, can remember being hit over and over and over again. In my face. Over and over. So many things go through your mind… I don’t remember pain, but I remember the fear. And the bewilderment. I think, to this day, the bewilderment is still there.

Oh and I remember the person who saved me that day too. The person who stepped in and stopped the madness.

The story didn’t end there. But it doesn’t matter. What matters is what I have done with my life.

You know we all make mistakes. We all deal with our crap in different ways. We all can either learn from it or not. We can also learn to forgive or not.

There are so many choices in this life. Well, actually that is all this life is, one choice after another.

Man I’m rambling. I do that sometimes.

I wish you all well. I love you. And I am here to listen to anyone that may need to talk.

Sometimes people think I’m way too dramatic. And that I seek attention. Trust me, I don’t. As a matter of fact… attention is something I hide from mostly.

I’ve had a pretty dramatic life. I “feel” very deeply. I don’t hide that well. And truth is I don’t care to! Love me or hate me….. I have deep scars and I choose to fill those scars with love. And that love is for others. I want to be here for you.

It’s what I want. It’s how I choose to “recover” from life. ❤️

**if you actually read to the end of this long ramble….. thank you. I’ve just shared with you something that I’ve never shared with anyone….. for no other reason than to say- I know some stuff cause I’ve been through some stuff and I’m here if you want to talk.