This has been a hard week. We went to Alabama on Friday to see my brother one last time before he passed; we didn’t make it. I am okay about it, I know it happened the way it was supposed to. But my other brother, he had a really hard time and that was hard. My brother, Robert, was 57 years old in April. He was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer with Mets to the liver and lungs, in Jan 2008. He has been through so much! He had many surgeries, beginning with a colostomy and many others ending with liver surgeries to remove tumors.
Here is the thing about my brother- he never acted like he was sick or dying. He refused to act the part! We went to Alabama on a couple of occasions in the last few yeas because we thought his time was close and he fooled us all. Of course we thought it would be the same this time. It wasn’t. it was really his time and once it was it went fast. He was diagnosed with another mets to the brain 3 weeks ago, then after a few days in the hospital, he went home only to return before they could do the surgery to remove it, this time with sepsis. His liver was finally giving out. And it wasn’t coming back. He went home to hospice on Thursday and Friday night he was gone.
Ya want to know a really interesting thing about it? We all went down to AL 4 years ago thinking he was going soon. When we were all together when he did pass, July 1, we started talking about last time and how my granddaughter was trying to steal fireworks off of a table…..then I realized (none of us had) that the last time we gathered was fourth of July weekend too! Wow- he got four more years almost to the day! Awesome!
So yeah it has been a harder than normal week. And now all this violence around our great nation!
My prayers go out to the families and loved ones of those police officers injured and killed!
Someone asked how I can stay positive in the darkness.
I have a choice. It is the only choice I can see my way to make. I can’t even imagine succumbing to the darkness, the sadness. It is just like any other time, I have to be grateful, now at times I may have a harder time reaching and grabbing that gratitude, but I will reach!! I will grab for it! It is my lifeline!
It can be yours too!
Gratitude makes the darkness lighter……… and bearable…… ❤