Gratitude is not something that I experienced much in my early life. If you think that A) I have always been a grateful happy person or B) that I just popped out of bed one day and was grateful……well you would sort of be right on point B, with the exception that I had to fake it till I made it! What am I saying?
While it is true I didn’t just pop out of bed grateful one day, after some serious crisis of faith, I did pop out of bed one day and start practicing gratitude. And I did decide to have a fake it till you make it attitude, which I began with in 2007. And it is also true that after awhile that attitude changed into a true gratitude that has not left me since. I have had my ups and downs, we all do, but even in my most dark moments, I have stayed grateful. I have been tested by friends and loved ones alike, as well as from a business sense, and what the testing showed me is the gratitude stuck. Because of the gratitude that I began incorporating into my life 9 years ago, I have been able to overcome significant challenges in my life like never before.
I have history that I am able to hold up for comparison to who I am today. Because of this I am able, with confidence, to say I am not the same person I was and I owe that to God and gratitude.
I have had people in my life that tried to cause me to fail, some knew what they were doing, while others were just pawns being used by the Universe to keep me growing. I am grateful for all my challenges and for all of the people who have come into my life; good and bad. As a matter of fact, I do not even like to refer to the situations (or people) as bad;they were not ideal situations and the people involved , I now know, were not meant to remain in my life. And that is OKAY! All of my life situations I am grateful for and I wouldn’t change a thing. All of this growth has made me into who I am today and that is someone I am extremely happy with.
So rather than say I have had bad experiences with people, I want to take a moment and say that all those who are in my past, I love you all for what you brought to my life at the time. I know you were there for a reason, some of those reasons are now apparent and some I may not know until I meet God and can ask…..but I have faith and gratitude that you were in my life for a reason. I love you all. And I offer my sincere apology if I have ever made anyone feel less than the wonderful person they are. I know when we go through things we are not always our best. And it has taken me years to get to a place where I am able to go through a challenge and remain true to the unconditional love giver that I seek to be. Although I do have to acknowledge that there are some in our life that will always see our relationship with them as bad. There is nothing more we can do to help others see things in a grateful or loving way- all we can do is lead by example and be responsible for our feelings and thoughts- if you say you have no ill will towards another but they insist you do; let it go. They will need to go through it on their own.
We can only do our best and as long as we strive to be better today than yesterday- all will be well. And so it is that I pray for all of us that we will be better today than yesterday! And that we will be grateful for the opportunity to do so!