A few years ago I started writing a book about Christianity and the effects it has on some people; positive and negative, but concentrating on the negative impact organized religion can have on some people and their recovery or the need for recovery. I abandoned that book after I received some negative, repeated, feedback from family members. I had already wrote a bit at that time but I caved to pressure. I was being told that I had to make sure I had the thick skin, as well as the courage, to actually publish the book I was writing. And take the backlash I would surely get from my church. I didn’t. I looked in the mirror and decided I didn’t have it in me to face the storm of disapproval that was sure to follow the publication of my book.
Now it is almost 3 years since I abandoned that project. Here is the thing…..since then I have attempted to start a few different writing projects, and I do manage to write a little here and there ( not including this blog that is) but the BIG project has not yet happened. I love the subject that I write on; Gratitude, Forgiveness, and Unconditional love, and I have published an eBook, but as I said, the big project has not been completed.
Lately I have wondered about that original book, that idea, a lot! Then today something happened……. I had lunch with a friend who I have not really seen or talked to much in the past couple of years. During our conversation…amazingly enough, she managed to bring me back to my book project. No she didn’t know anything about it, she just made an observation and it brought it up for me (the memory). Wow….I had not thought of it in so long! I got that tingly knowing feeling. I knew the reason for every unfinished project (since the original) was staring me in the face.
Interesting side note. I have made plans for a retreat center for the last few years too. Each time I talked about it or wrote about it….It just did not resonate within me! It seems to fall flat. And worse yet…I didn’t feel like it was meant to be. But now all of a sudden, after my friend inadvertently got me back on track, when I think of the retreat center it seems not only completely possible it seems easy! The ideas flow…..
This goes to show when you get into your truth your energy will flow easily. You will know you have it right because of the energy you generate.
I am confident the reason I so easily abandoned the project a few years ago was because I did not have it in me to defend my book and my belief! I was afraid that if people were upset with me and confronted me I would back pedal and sell out on my thoughts! I did not want to do that. So I have spent the last 3 years getting strong! And now that I am strong I can face any storm that comes.
There is always a reason for everything that happens. I have that faith…I know that to be true. This just proves what I already knew!