As the fog lifts there is only pain. Pain,pain,pain, and more pain. Time heals all wounds, here’s to hoping! Can this ever be the same again? I do not think so. I mean how could it be? My life was blown to pieces…
.do you can you come back from being blown into tiny little pieces? Maybe….
This morning as I was hugging my husband…no he hugging me, over his shoulder I read a quote I have written on the wall…. ” Faith is not believing that God can- it is knowing that he WILL. “
I take comfort in that. I know that God will deliver me, one way or the other, out of the hole I am currently residing in.
I have faith.
I wonder if he does? I hope so. I feel bad that I write because that means people will ultimately know and I feel bad for that but I can’t not write. I could write privately….but I don’t want to. I guess that is the price you pay for being married to the soul of a writer. Or being married to me. Maybe that was not such a good choice on his part? Maybe he is rethinking that decision he made 13 years ago? Maybe…. doubtful…cause I’m pretty awesome! Ha! Levity….a good thing!
I know this is not much of a post today…there may be more, but for now this is it. I still have not eaten since Thursday….well…I did eat some meat yesterday (protein, its something) other than that Nada. I am just a bit too nauseous to eat yet and honestly it just doesn’t make sense to eat right now. Fasting can be a good thing. I will turn this into a fast.