Last post found me, sharing with you, my journey through the grief of losing a sister ( pseudo and not really after all) but painful none the less! I wanted to share that journey with you as I hoped it might help someone out there going through the same thing. Or similar. And now….I can’t share with you 100% what has happened but I can share with you that I woke up yesterday and the grief I felt for losing that other relationship compares naught to the one I have lost now. At 8:37 AM yesterday morning my world came to a crashing halt.
So now I get to journey through grief again and I want to take you with me. No worries! You are just an observer….I will handle the pain. I am thinking that my God is a good God so I know this is for a reason. I hate to think it is to make me stronger cause lord knows I am pretty strong! Maybe it is…maybe it is to make me more vulnerable….or to enable me to ask for help and to lean on others? I don’t know! And quite frankly at this moment I do not care.
Right now my head hurts and I have not eaten since Thursday…I don’t think I am worth much as far as writing goes right now….but there is something in me that thinks tortured soul creates great literature! Or something like that! We will see. I don’t exactly write literature….I wander around on paper….thoughts floating here and there….maybe the thoughts will get a bit more interesting? Maybe this is what I need to just keep going? Again…I don’t know!
For heavens sake…and yours, I am going to cut this off here. Rest assured there is bound to be more over the next few days…at least!