In the words of….well, many before me, but now I’m thinking of one particular friend who has made this her mantra recently! ( Mellen)
Onward and Upward!
OK, so yesterday I had a little moment that was “time out” worthy! I took that “time out” and grew from it. Which, I think, we can all agree is what a “time out” should do for us! Help us to grow! 🙂
Today is a new day and I awoke to two interesting things! And truly I had not thought about this until this very moment but here goes….. I awoke to two messages, one from an old friend and one from a new friend. A little background to catch you up;
The new friend I have known for a while, but we had not met in person, the old friend I have known for a couple of years. Both friends have the same types of goals/dreams as I do, and we were/are moving towards realizing them together!
The old friend has been, inexplicably, turning away from me and our relationship/goals in the last few months. I had not known why and continued to reach out but it was dissolving none the less ( and actually the correct word is evolving, because I love her and she I and we will always be connected) The new friend popped up, not by my request, in my life more and more at the same time the old friend was leaving or changing. I didn’t think much of it as it was happening.
Recently I had thought, and that is the operative word here, thought, that I was exhibiting a lack of confidence in myself and my abilities, I really thought I had an AHA moment! Basically to make a long story short, I felt that I was constantly pulling other people into my dreams/goals because I lacked confidence to follow through! I thought I had a breakthrough as to why I had not achieved my goals yet! But I am beginning to realize this is not the case! God wants me to be part of something HUGE and to be HUGE it takes more than just little old me! And it takes time! OK…I am good with that! 🙂
And you know why I realized I am not having a lack of confidence? Because as the old friend backed out of my life, this HUGE movement that I knew was coming, continued to grow! And God brought a new person to fill the space ( the new friend). I did not ask for a new person! As a matter of fact I resisted! Because I thought I was “doing it again!” That I was looking to another to help where I lacked! That is when I realized that I was not having a crisis of confidence at all! God was leading me into something HUGE and I kept backing off…..if it wasn’t one thing it was another, and this particular time it was the crisis of confidence issue that didn’t even exist!
And now I am thinking “Stay the Course” “Stay the course” is a phrase used in the context of a war or battle meaning to pursue a goal regardless of any obstacles or criticism.
So to get back to this morning. The two things that I woke up to? Well now that you know the background maybe you can appreciate the validation here. The two messages, one from the old friend and one from the new. The old friends words stung and served to remind me that she was moving on ( evolving ) but no sooner had I read the message ( and definitely not enough time to become sad) I saw the new friends message and it was uplifting and exactly what I needed at that moment. Could GOD have made it any clearer than that ? HE is in control! And I think I forgot that for a moment or two…or three……. A because of the uplifting message I was able to feel nothing but love towards the old friend regardless of my sadness. That is good stuff!
Now I say, “bring it on GOD!” I get it! I realize that YOU are placing people, or trying to place people, in my life so that we can together change this world!
I will stop resisting and go with it! And better than that I will say “thank you” each day “thank you, that you continue to bring these inspired, wise, motivated, world-changing, people into my life!”
Onward and Upward we go!
Peace and love~ Christine