In 2007 I started a journey which would lead me down roads…into valleys and onto mountaintops so high that I felt I could soar! What was I looking to achieve with my journey? I wanted to discover “who” I was and what my purpose here on earth really is. That is easier said than done AND once you embark on that journey I believe that you open up a whole other door to a whole other world!
Before I began my journey I was a typical person, I believe, just living my life trying to get from day-to-day as best that I could and relatively happy while doing it I might add. But there was an emptiness and of course, like many westerners, I found it said that the emptiness was probably a void left by my not having the relationship that I needed with God. A good relationship with God should fill the voids in your life, the voids that all of us feel from time to time.
Well I attended church on a regular basis and I felt pretty good about that, I tried to help others as best that I could and felt pretty good about that too. I joined a few of the organizations at my church and you guessed it…I felt pretty good about that………..until one day I didn’t any longer. I did not really know what it was, but the one thing that I did know was that I was beginning to have a bit of a sour taste towards the Christians that I spent time with, why? Well….to make it short I felt that there was a lot of negativity and falseness surrounding the church, at least my experience with the church. Quite frankly it was depressing me and I did not even realize it. I think I was letting it affect my relationship with God. So I guess it was a pretty good assessment that my “void” was created from a lack of God in my life.
What did I do about it? I made a life changing decision to leave my family and church and set out on a quest to find myself. The “quest” lasted for about a year until one day I had an epiphany and needed to go home. So I did. Obviously there is a lot more to this story than I am able to go into in one small post here on my blog….but the end result is the same…I had a major…life altering epiphany and it led me back home.
So off I went with my new attitude and life so full of God that I knew it was all going to be good. Well….about 4 or 5 months into this homecoming I realized that I was still not on the right path! I started devouring self-help books and attending seminars. I read and listened to as much self help…new age….positive….stuff that I could possibly listen to in 2 years and it happened. What happened? I started to feel the shift. I had been on this journey for almost 4 years and several times within that time span I thought I had arrived, I even spearheaded a charitable cause during this time which I thought was IT…but I never did arrive..I never did find that I knew in my gut that I was there. I kept evolving and it really bugged me!!
On Dec 20, 2010 I really felt the shift. I keep using the term “shift” because one of the people who I listened to a lot and read and as it turns out watched during my transformation period was Wayne Dyer. His movie The Shift really had an impact on me, I wish I could say that everything changed after watching it but I cannot say that, it just would not be true. As I said my shift took place after years of studying and evolving, there was not one particular thing that I can point to as the reason or cause that the shift started to occur. Sorry…
It is true, in my opinion anyway, that your life is like a stream and you should not resist it. Whether it is good or bad you need to go with it and let it pass. You need to embrace your life for what it is and thank God that you are here in this world able and ready to take it on the way He intended for you to. You need to wake up and see with the eyes that God gave you what your true meaning here on earth is and move in the direction of your dreams. Having a hard time figuring out what your true meaning in life is? These are some of the resources that I have used over the years to help me understand, stop fighting and embrace who I am.
It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it!~Aristotle
What I am trying to say here is no matter what you believe in, no matter your faith, you should be able to read anything, entertain the veracity of it and either discard it as not in your believe system or use it to benefit your life. Do not be so intolerant and closed-minded that you miss the gold nuggets within the crap!
These are just a few of the people who have helped me along the way…..I will add more soon.